Jul 23, 2011
Jun 17, 2011
I love how the Lord puts certain people in our lives to help us along our way. These people can be the answers to your prayers. Gods angels on earth. Brooke was one of those angels for me, an answer to my prayers. I really wanted to have a baby after having a miscarriage or blighted ovum. I wondered what to do. I became friends with Brooke, we went to church together. I remember one night we were driving in her car and we were having a great conversation. She had struggled with infertility and she began asking me a lot of personal questions (which were quite appropriate). I answered them and she said I bet you have the same thing that I do, Stein Leventhal Syndrome or PCOS . Since she went through all the tests etc. She knew what would work best and what I should ask the Dr. to do. I followed her advice (knowing the Lord put her in my path). I had blood tests, ultrasounds, a hysterosalpingogram-HSG done, among other things. I did have PCOS. I was so grateful that Brooke and I had that conversation that night. She set me on a road that resulted in me getting pregnant with my first child, my son Logan. It was very frustrating at times. I remember having to be very proactive knowing that I did have PCOS and that I needed the Dr. to know that I did! I found myself at times telling him what I wanted done. Then I had to make sure he gave me the results. Geesh the Air Force.... that is all I can say.
The Dr. prescribed Clomid, I took only one round of pills (like 4) and boom got pregnant with Logan.
Knowing what I know now and looking back on my life, if you think that you have PCOS it can be cured... atleast it is my belief that through exercise and diet you can be cured. I wouldn't recommend being on hormones, Metformin, or infertility drugs for any extended period of time. We need to heal our bodies and make them work correctly through natural means.
With that being said I was not in the best of shape when I was pregnant with Logan. I got HUGE! My face swelled and my ankles swelled. By belly was giant. I was around 31 or 32 weeks and I was having lots of contractions and they stopped them with a Tributaline shot. OUCH! It hurt really bad and continued to be sore even after I had Logan! They told me that if I went into labor before 36 weeks i wouldn't be able to deliver at the Air Force Hospital (Dyess Air Foece Base).
I had wonderful friends plan a shower for me. Suzanne and Gidget. I was due on March 26th 1999. And they threw the shower for me on February 21st. Some people wondered why I was having the shower a month before he was due. Like it was way too soon to have a baby shower. I told people well I was 8 weeks early and who knows if he will be early or not.
Logan's Auntie Elle flew in from Utah to come to the shower. She made a very sweet blanket for him. We lived in Abilene Texas at the time. And Elle had to fly out of Lubbock TX. She flew out on the 22nd and before she left she said, "Now don't go having that baby now that I am leaving!"
I remember that drive (which was over a 2 hour drive) was very uncomfortable for me. I was so very sore. I wass exhaustes by the time we came home. I was so tired I went to bed as soon as we got home. I remember getting up several times to go to potty. It was the weirdest thing while walking to the toilet I had to go so bad, then when I sat down I couldn't go. I stood up and I had to etc. etc. So I just stood up to empty my bladder. TMI I know but I just thought it to be so strange.
At 1AM I was woken up to a FLOOD! My water BROKE! I wasn't due for another 4 1/2 weeks! It was really a beautiful feeling for me an overwhelming feeling of I am going to meet my son soon! I remember being told about if your water breaks how it really is. I was told that it isn't like in the movies where it just floods all over the place. It is more like a trickle. YA RIGHT! Mine wasn't a trickle!
With every contractions lots of water came out. I wondered what happened to my gigantic belly? Where did it go? I called my mom. She said, "Now it will happen one of two ways, either you go quick or it will take a while." (what are the other options LOL) I was just chatting away. My husband (now ex husband)... to be continued
Jun 15, 2011
As I sit here thinking about this being my last pregnancy, it is bittersweet for me. I feel privileged to have had 5 healthy beautiful children and another one on the way. Bringing children into this world is a blessing. I know I have done something very sacred. Bringing these special spirits from our Heavenly Father, helping them to gain a body so they can fulfill their Missions in this life. All part of the Plan of Salvation. We have planned a Home Water Birth with this baby. I am very excited and nervous. I feel very blessed from my Heavenly Father to be able to have a home birth. To be able to celebrate this birth and this "chapter" in my life. I am due in about 3 weeks, around the 4th of July.
During this pregnancy I haven't been checked to find out how dilated I am or to see if anything is "happening". When I was pregnant with Lily I was checked several times and all it did was make me frustrated, and impatient because I was dilated and effaced for weeks before she was born. I thought any day she'll be born. Wrong she was born 2 days after her guess date.
I feel very patient in this pregnancy trying to enjoy every last minute of it. That is why I am blogging about it. I want to remember what it was like to be pregnant, since I tend to forget. As I sit here and type I am crying... Little Mark is moving and sticking his cute little butt up on my left side. He loves to stick his foot out on the right side. I am one that does miss the baby moving inside of me after they are born. It may sound crazy to some. There is no other thing like it in the world! Even holding my babies and breastfeeding I still will miss them moving inside of me. Weird I know. I even question the rational.
I slept really good a couple nights ago (the BEST sleep in a LONG time). I only got up a couple of times. However last night I went to bed about 9:30 and went to the bathroom around 11, 1, 2, 3 and finally got up to eat around 4ish :) Maybe it was the almost full moon and my body thought it was Sunlight. LOL
My ankles have swelled at times when I am on my feet a lot. My lower back is getting sore and my ligament on the sides are starting to hurt more. I am getting lots of practice contractions that I can feel more in my back. They are preparing me for the "real" thing. Just recently I have started having acid re-flux which is normal for me during the 1st and 3rd trimesters of my pregnancies. Although with this one I have been able to eat things I wasn't able to with the others. I have been able to eat tomatoes and tomato sauce, green chilies, salsa etc. Eating spicy things in the beginning suggested I was having a boy. When I was pregnant with Logan I ate sliced jalapenos!
Before this pregnancy I worked very hard to lose over 50 pounds! Little did I know I was preparing my body to bring another child into this world. This has been one of the easiest pregnancy's I have had. I am very grateful for that. My last pregnancy I thought that i could never do that again. Brandon even recently told me that when I was pregnant with Lily it was really bad and that i could't do anything. Although I haven't been able to exercise this pregnancy I have watched what I've eaten and tried to eat as "healthy " as I can. It gets harder the more tired I get. I started out at 135 and now I am at 164 or 165! I was 162 BEFORE I got pregnant with Lily. I always weighed over 200 POUNDS by the time I delivered my other babies. So I am very proud of this accomplishment. I haven't eaten at McDonald's, Burger King, Wendy's, or Taco Bell! Which normally was a staple in previous pregnancies! LOL
Brandon and the kiddos helped do a belly cast a couple nights ago for family home evening. I stood leaning and kind of sitting on a stool for about 50 minutes. Brandon did a great job. It has to be sanded etc. before it is finished however it really shows the difference in this pregnancy and when I was pregnant with Lily.
A few weeks ago when I was grocery shopping at Costco I ran into Cami Austin, who we go to church with. Well we used to go to church with her. However her family and our family go to different buildings now. Anyways, we got to chatting and she asked me if I was having a Baby Shower? I said no. She said you have to you are having a boy. I will throw you one and I'm going to call people in your Ward or Congregation for those of you who don't know what Ward means. I am so grateful that I ran into Cami that day and that she was so kind and inspired to think of me and my baby. I had a wonderful baby shower on Saturday June 11th. Heather Carlisle, Marjorie Sprague, and Cami Austin threw it for me in a short period of time. So many people were so gracious and blessed my life with not only gifts but memories. I was so glad that I was able to celebrate this last pregnancy and celebrate this new life that I will bringing into the world shortly.
She was unable to be at the shower since her son was sick :(
|LOTS of YUMMY Food|
My mind wonders to my past pregnancy's so bear with me. You may want to fast forward to the end if you'd like. Since this may be boring for most of you. This is more for me kind of journaling for my posterity's sake.
I'm remembering my first "pregnancy" now. I didn't know how far along I was because my periods were very irregular. I had struggled since I was a teenager with "woman" issues. Lots of BAD menstrual cramps etc. I remember I was working cleaning houses at the time of this pregnancy. I remember getting really dizzy and nauseous one day while cleaning a bathroom, which they say is a good sign in pregnancy. My Mom even got me a little Noah's Ark white onesie. It was so cute and little. My Dr. had ordered an ultrasound to figure out how far along I was. I had my husband and my Mom there when I had the ultrasound done. I was so excited. They had them stay out in the waiting room while they got things ready. So while by myself she was looking at the baby and I didn't see the monitor. The Dr. put her hand on my leg and said, "I don't know how to tell you this, but the baby never developed." I think I was maybe 10-12 weeks along. Very sad day for me. It was like I lost my first child. To me there was a baby growing inside of me. It was very difficult to think it was just a blob or cells (blighted ovum). The Dr. asked me if I wanted to tell my husband or if she should. I decided to tell him. I was also given the option of miscarrying on my own and perhaps losing a lot of blood in the process, or having a D&C. I chose a D&C. Which meant I had to have my cervix dilated for the rest of the day until my D&C in the morning. OUCH it hurt! I had a hard time walking and was in a lot of pain.
I had the D&C the next morning and my Dr. asked if she could pray with us. She asked God to guide her hands. I was very impressed with her prayer. How many Dr's pray with their patients before surgery?
Well afterwards I remember my Church Family really stepping up to the plate. Doing our laundry bringing meals in. Sending cards and gifts. I felt that in my time of need I was being blessed with friends who helped me so much and were very comforting.
As a child I thought that I would never be able to have children. After my "miscarriage" we moved to Texas with the Air Force. I struggled with PCOS and had ALL kinds of tests and procedures to figure that diagnosis out.
I had to take Clomid (well I thought I did at the time) to get pregnant with Logan.
END of Part One
May 3, 2011
Mar 17, 2011
In the first dream I saw some horrible things happen around me. It was actually a flood. I saw a house in my neighborhood lifted up by water and carried away. I could see the water rushing our way. I thought I needed to hurry to my house and get the pictures, the photographs that I could not replace if they got ruined. My children were not around at this point. I started running with my husband to get the photos, but it was too late. I saw in front of me the water covering certain pictures and a painting that I believe was my grandfathers painting. Just a second too late. (Maybe I dreamed this because of the recent earthquake and tsunami in Japan. Although I had only watched one maybe two videos online about the situation. I don't watch a lot of TV and haven't heard or seen much about it. Other than what people are writing on Facebook. Maybe I am purposely not wanting to know so I don't get upset about it or maybe I am too busy to stop and watch, not sure.)
Anyways, in my dream I was told by the Lord before this calamity happened to be prepared. To make sure I had a 3 day supply of emergency items for my family (72 hour emergency preparedness kit). I remember how horrible it was to know I was told to do this and I didn't listen! My dream was filled with trying to scramble round and get things together around the house. Everything was such a mess and I thought how easy it would've been if I just listened, packed everything in one place and then I could grab it and go when we needed to get out.
I remember my children at one point after the water had gone down that they were sledding on the streets that were now covered with ice and snow. They were happy, laughing, and playing while I was still trying to figure things out. (Which of course it all doesn't make sense.)
My neighbors were having some what of a party with there family cooking in their front yard. Kind of oblivious to what just happened. I was even sharing with them about being prepared. Like I was prepared?
I have actually been working on being prepared. I just put a LARGE order in of food and some emergency things Food that if I use it right will and can sustain us. Although I need to finish on my 72 hour Kit. About a month ago I bought this big duffel bag that has wheels. I just need to fill it up now. And this dream has prompted me to take action.
For many, many years the Leaders of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints have counseled us to be prepared with food storage and emergency supplies for our family. In my previous marriage I had a good start with food storage. Although I couldn't take it with me and I'm not sure what ever happened to it.
You know we don't know what will happen in our lives, why we may need these things. It could be a natural disaster, it could be that food around the world is being affected by disasters, or for whatever reason we can't get the things we need at the store, even loss of employment.
I am just grateful that we have been warned and that I have time to get these things accomplished (hopefully) and that if something happens we will be prepared.
Mar 15, 2011
Mar 13, 2011
Ten Reasons not to Use Your Microwave Oven
Based on Swiss, Russian and German clinical studies
- Continually eating food processed from a microwave oven causes long term, permanent, brain damage by "shorting out" electrical impulses in the brain [de-polarizing or de-magnetizing the brain tissue].
- The human body cannot metabolize [break down] the unknown by-products created in micro-waved food.
- Male and female hormone production is shut down and/or altered by continually eating micro-waved foods.
- The effects of micro-waved food by-products are residual [long term, permanent] within the human body.
- Minerals, vitamins, and nutrients of all micro-waved food is reduced or altered so that the human body gets little or no benefit, or the human body absorbs altered compounds that cannot be broken down.
- The minerals in vegetables are altered into cancerous free radicals when cooked in a microwave oven.
- Micro-waved foods cause stomach and intestinal cancerous growths [tumors]. This has been a primary contributor to the rapidly increased rate of colon cancer in the United States.
- The prolonged eating of micro-waved foods causes cancerous cells to increase in human blood.
- Continual ingestion of micro-waved food causes immune system deficiencies through lymph gland and blood serum alterations.
- Eating micro-waved food causes loss of memory, concentration, emotional instability, and a decrease of intelligence.
Mar 12, 2011
Mar 11, 2011
|Sauteed in coconut oil, garlic powder,salt, course malaber pepper,|
crushed red pepper, the sauce I made with
Bragg's amino acids & honey
|I added some Organic short grain brown rice to the mix|
Now for DINNER The Kids have been wanting PIZZA
|Daiya mozzarella cheese, black olives, roma tomatoes, chopped spinach,|
baby bella mushrooms, chopped green chili,
turkey pastrami from Keller's for Logan :)
|Homemade whole wheat crust & pizza sauce|
Whole Wheat Pizza Dough
this is a recipe I actually followed. No subbing or omitting :)
Ultimate Pizza Sauce
I used grade B maple syrup instead of sugar,
omitted the Parmesan cheese, I also didn't put butter,onions, celery or fennel.
Again use what you have but I HIGHLY suggest
dried basil and oregano if you don't have any buy some YUMMY!